Soulmate

i know the title is Soulmate, but i wanna talk about my day for a little bit just so i can remember what i did today. i am ecstatic! i went to see anna today before she leaves for harvard. we got to eat her famous dumplings! i'll miss it so much she she's gone. i'll miss you mucho anna! youre smartness and your big mouth always talking.. non stop. it keeps things interesting! harvard will do u good! you'll meet alot of new people! btw. i love the picture that you gave me! it'll remind me of you everytime i look at it.. obcviously because it'a picture of you.. don't party too hard! or drink too much! do what you do best! study study study! just kidding. go and party. but dont overdue it! i should make a bet on you.. haha jk. if i would my bet is that you'll be too good of a girl to do those things!! like patty said, you wouldn't even let her grind on you! loser face! haha jk. i'll miss you anna. and youre not so innocent self. i know that deep down you're hella naughty. hahah! <3> switching topic.. ive been listening to natasha alot today. here's one of her song lyric, soulmate:

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find
Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

this song is so sad because it seems so desperate...lol. i find myself really happy of my current status. even though i have never had that love experience, i find it easier, or easy in life. i dont need to think about the hurt that comes.. although i know that there would be alot of great times if you like someone. i guess i've seen alot of people hurt, and it hurts to see people being hurt because of it. when my mom was crying about these things, which btw is over now and i hope it never happens aagain, she mentioned to me how painful it is to be in a relationship and something bad happens.

i remember reading abby's blog about me and anh being truly independent woman, it makes me feel happy. i'll admit, the song lyrics " who doesn't long for someone to hold, who knows how to love you without being told" is true sometimes because when i see people being happy, i envy it. but then i get over it quickluy. haha. who doesn't wanna cuddles? haha. jk. but yes. i think the bet that i made with anh will help keep my head on my school work and away from the love life. im too young. hahahahahaha ok. gotta go my fingers are tired.