One year Later

This exact day, when everything came crashing down on my life. It was a year ago and i still can't believe how fast things came and go. It felt like it was only a few months ago when that incident happened. Sometimes a part of me think that it will never go away. Things that happen, little things bring back that stupid part of my life. I would tell what it is, but it's too private. All i can say is that it is about my family. But it's all over now. I just wanted to blog to say that I'm glad it is history and hopefully forgotten. But in my mind, I dont think i can. But whatever, all is forgiven and kinda maybe hopefully forgotten. 2008, a year of bad and good things. It started off with so much pain, but ending with love. There's always going to be good and bad, which makes life, LIFE.

Anyways, on to a better note, today is Patty's late birthday celebration. The plan is to hit up a strip club, and then dinner and then new year eve's celebration thing, iono. Anh was telling me how once the clock hits 12 am for new year, people grabs other people to kiss. haha. Anh and I were talking how we dont have anyone to kiss, how sad. =( but we can always kiss each other...on the cheeks! yay! haha. so another year go by, the same story. lol. jk. i'm happy. But yeah... I need to find money pronto! ASAP! fast! grr! i hate how money is so important. lol

btw, here is my new year's resolution !

- study harder and more
- spend less
- get a job?
- swim more
- arc more
- be nicer... even tho i'm already HELLA nice. haha
- eat more fruites/vegetables
- get a lincense ( getting closer)
- sleep early
- draw
- lalala
- more but i'll keep it to myself. hahaa. <3

Finally, after how long?

it's like 1: 41 am right now and i'm finally writing a blog. it's been a while. just want to catch up on my life? haha i dont know. but anyways. today i went to oakland tech to visit my old school friends. i was most excited to see my BFFs jordan and alexis! even though they are extremely mean to me sometimes, they are pretty awesome! we better go eat tommorow cus right now i am starving.

when i went in the room, i was so sad cus i thought my architecture project wasn't hung up! i looked everywhere for it, around the back where most of the projects are.. turns out it was in the front! yay! i was hella happy!

anyways, the day before that, i hung out with smartass anna from harvard. she totally changed her style of dressing, but she's still anna. she's like having a blast at harvard. partying like a wild beast! omg. i wanna see her "grinding" on some guy. lols. i remember when she felt hella quilty the first time she ever did it. haha. anyways. we went to berkeley and saw Nancy! she still had finals so we couldn't do much! but it was nice seeing her again. Patty girl i still need to see her!

the day before that, i went to sanjose for alvin and bryan's birthday. we went to the christmas in the park. i realized that i have been there before. lol. but it was fun seeing friends from davis and getting to know people better.

anyways. i was talking to gene and he brought up a very funny request. for me to get a boyfriend already.. haha. thnks gene. you made my day. but he sorta makes a point. i pull myself away most of the time because im scared... but this time i'm doing it for another reason. anyways. i can't wait to see my bffs again today. just wanna catch up.

btw. i'm done with my panda girl sketch. on to my next subject. who/ what can it be?? lols

Back From College

College is great but i get homesick even when i am having fun. there is this one second of loneliness that makes every fun i'm having disappears. but even with that, i get back to having fun with my friends. i haven't been writing much on this thing because no body actually reads it anyways.. boring shit. but since i am hella bored and anh's looking at korean stuff on her computer i might as well do something.

actually. im lazy and i dont really feel like typing stuff. college is fun. people are cool. food is yucky. classes are boring and a bitch. other than that. college is scary. lets leave it to that. i wish i can go back to highschool. but do i? i dont know. i get home sick really fast. iono maybe i'll adjust later on. i just miss alot of people. my family, my friends, my aypal peoples, my bffs. ok. that's it for now. i gotta go typing is boring me out also.

The Irony of Love

I got this off the internet... but its so true.

The Irony of Love....

The greatest irony of love: Loving the right person at the wrong time or having the wrong person when the time is right; finding out you love someone after that person walks out of your life. Sometimes, you think you're already over a person, but when you see them smile at you; you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person. But in my opinion, some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else. Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love, but because love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much, and the other was being loved too little. Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love, but to only discover that for them we are just for past times. While the one who truly loves us remains either your friend or a stranger.

When you think of your past love; you may view it as a failure; but when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What's important is that you know when to hold on and when to let go! You know that you love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not apart of it. Everything happens for a reason and for its best. If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try.

You'll never truly love a person, unless you risk for their love; love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, then you won't learn how to love. Love doesn't hurt all the time; though the hurting is there to test you, to help you grow. Don't find love, let love find you; that's why it's called falling in love, because you don't need to force yourself to love, you just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing the chapters. If you want to move on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. But why is it that the greatest irony of love is letting go when you want to hold on, and holding on when you need to let go? When falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get back on the horse. But don't ever make the same mistake of riding the same horse that once threw us off.

To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying and to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing at all! To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose your true self. To love is to risk not being loved in return.

How to define love: Fall but do not stumble. Be constant but not too persistent. Share and never be unfair. Understand and try not to demand. Hurt but never keep the pain.

Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom; whom they choose to be and where they choose to go. Loving someone means giving them the freedom to find their way, whether it leads towards you or away from you.

Love can be a painful risk. To love means that risk must be taken, no matter how scary or painful, for only then will you experience the fullness of humanity of what we call love. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take the risk and if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love.

AAD Production.

stands for Abby Anh Diem Production. haha. yes. today my girls and i made a short movie. it's rather stupid and lame. but we had tons of fun making this. it all started out with us going to Best Buy with Jason for some TV. we got bored so decided to record us doing a Food Network TV Show. it was random and silly. but we ended up makign another small skit when we got back to my house.
Crazy Women in Kitchen



anyways. today was a very fun day. even when we are together in a bored place, we can always find something to do and have a great time do it. gosh. i love my friends. they do everything. even stupid, lame and silly things. that's why i can always count on them to make me smile! <3

I'm READY dude.

it's a friday and i'm sitting here writing this stupid blog because i have no life. haha jk. but seriously though, i'm not doign anything today. i feel lazy. i want to go out. but i kinda dont want to. so indecisive. yes i am. yesterday i went to the hiphop/poetry/theater AYPAL performance. it was pretty good. i loved the play. it reminds me of the good o' days. it feels like just yesterday when i was on the same stage performing that skit. i miss it so much. what i miss most was the people that i shared them good times with.

i can't believe i will be leaving in less than 7 days. it's scary! but i am SOOO READDY. i honestly can't wait to leave and embark on a new journey with my girls. it will be an adventure of our life. College. the title already scares me.. but it also excites me! staying home makes me want to leave and go to college. but when i'm with my friends and the people i like and care about, i makes me not want to leave. i told my friend i wanted to be younger so i didn't have to leave. that i wanted to say young longer and not have to worry about the future and life. being young is awesome because the older you are, the more responsibility you have. and that harder life is. i wish i can bring all my friends with me to college, but all i can bring are pictures and memories. thnk god im not going to college too far from home because i would be sadder than i would be. at least i can come back and visit on weekends.

My Roomates

today was a total bore because i had nothing to do. i stayed home and stayed on this laptop. i was messing around with adobe photo-shop. it was pretty interesting because i haven't used it in a while and i seem to forget how to soon some tools. here's some work that i've done today: it's just fadings... nothing special.



anyways. i was looking through the pictures from my old computer and sending them into my laptop. and i come upon a picture of me and my roomates, anh and abby! this was taken in 8th grade. our dinner dance. that's 4 YEARS AGO! i can't believe it! time pass by so fast! i'm so glad i will be spending 4 more years with these two lovely girls whom i can do stupid things around and laugh no matter what. I thought davis would be boring and dull but that thought that im sharing my college experience with abby and anh, made me want to like learn about it more. and as i started to pay attention to what davis offers, i love it more. i like how it is a town and not a big city. it's not too far or too close to home. and davis has awesome people. oh and the fact that i got tercero! laben....( oops i mean kearney. thanks girls)! with my girls! made it the more special. here's a picture of the dinner dance:

yup that's ANH ABBY and ME! that's us! we look the same??? i dont know. sorta. maybe. but that was us just 4 years ago. and another 4 more years we will have and probably until the end of time! WE WILL RULE DAVIS! haha jk. plus NANCY AND PATTY! I CAN NEVER FORGET THEM. even though they dont go to the same school as us anymore, i love them dearly!!!! LOVE U PANDA!

After 6 days

it's late and......
i finally decided to write a blog after a few days. i've been really lazy and busy with who knows what. writing was a daily thing for me. i used to wish that it was another day already so that i can write about something else. during the past 4 days, i've been staying home and going out. friday i went to go eat korean food with nancy, anh, abby, kao, and kao's friend. it was pretty good except i think we annoyed the waiters. haha. our bad for taking too long. but anyways on saturday i went to an oases social bbq at washington part with aypal. i miss those people so much and it was very nice seeing them again! aypal has made my senior year the best year in highschool. i got to meet so many great people that i can never forget. i just hope that i leave a good enough footprint. some are still young and have alot ahead of them, i dont want highschool to be a place to corrupt and lead them in the wrong direction. enough with the sad talk. aypal made me break out of my shell more and helped me with my public speaking and confidense to approach others. i used to be really nervous when speaking in front of a crowd. now i'm like "bring it on" even tho inside i am nervous and wanting to pee in my pants. i really am going to miss those days at YLO Meetings and yelling ONE MIC all the time to get the listener's attention. i hope for the new interns another great year! anyways. today. i went swimming at alex's pool. it was relaxing. i haven't swam for a while and i miss a mass of water so much. i tried to swim. i think i lost it. seriously. i get tired really quickly. and dont even ask about the butterfly. i was horrible. i was literally gasping for air. my head hurt today because of the amount water that went inside. it was painful. i really miss those old swimming days where perry (our coach) calls me a fish. =) too bad he left before senior year started.
the girls of oaktech swim team. PANDA plus ANNA.

i can't wait until tommorow. or should i say today when morning comes. my mom and i are going dorm shopping and washing the bed sheets. this will be the first time in a long time that i spend time with my mommy. i love her dearly. she's been busy with work and i'm jsut really excited to spend the day with her today. i would put a picture up but i am using my laptop and sadly i haven't added pictures with her in this thing yet. but rest assure you. she is really pretty! ahah

Soulmate

i know the title is Soulmate, but i wanna talk about my day for a little bit just so i can remember what i did today. i am ecstatic! i went to see anna today before she leaves for harvard. we got to eat her famous dumplings! i'll miss it so much she she's gone. i'll miss you mucho anna! youre smartness and your big mouth always talking.. non stop. it keeps things interesting! harvard will do u good! you'll meet alot of new people! btw. i love the picture that you gave me! it'll remind me of you everytime i look at it.. obcviously because it'a picture of you.. don't party too hard! or drink too much! do what you do best! study study study! just kidding. go and party. but dont overdue it! i should make a bet on you.. haha jk. if i would my bet is that you'll be too good of a girl to do those things!! like patty said, you wouldn't even let her grind on you! loser face! haha jk. i'll miss you anna. and youre not so innocent self. i know that deep down you're hella naughty. hahah! <3> switching topic.. ive been listening to natasha alot today. here's one of her song lyric, soulmate:

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find
Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

this song is so sad because it seems so desperate...lol. i find myself really happy of my current status. even though i have never had that love experience, i find it easier, or easy in life. i dont need to think about the hurt that comes.. although i know that there would be alot of great times if you like someone. i guess i've seen alot of people hurt, and it hurts to see people being hurt because of it. when my mom was crying about these things, which btw is over now and i hope it never happens aagain, she mentioned to me how painful it is to be in a relationship and something bad happens.

i remember reading abby's blog about me and anh being truly independent woman, it makes me feel happy. i'll admit, the song lyrics " who doesn't long for someone to hold, who knows how to love you without being told" is true sometimes because when i see people being happy, i envy it. but then i get over it quickluy. haha. who doesn't wanna cuddles? haha. jk. but yes. i think the bet that i made with anh will help keep my head on my school work and away from the love life. im too young. hahahahahaha ok. gotta go my fingers are tired.

Summer Endings

the end of summer is getting closer and closer. and people are leaving and leaving. anna's leaving soon and that's another person leaving for harvard. i dont want to sound so emo talking about sad things so im going to switch subject.

although summer's coming to an end, i cant help but feel excited for the adventures at college. anh and i were discussing how we wanted to move in and still have summer and no classes. yeah. in our dreams. today was a nice day. i went to eat sushi with anh and we had to take the bus, since none of us have our lincense yet. went to meet up with alan and nancy in ct for some watermelon drinks. then went to my house for oysters. oh yeah! seafood! that's my day. also, i waxed nancy and my mom today! haha

speaking of my mom, i want to write a blog about her. i know that i dont appreciate my mom enough but i truely appreciate everything that she does for me. sometimes she can piss me off, but hey! every mom probably does. most people say that my mom and dad is pretty cool, i think they are too. i know i call my dad a racist a couple of times, but i was exaggerating. lol. back to my mom. she and i are really close. i tell her alot of things in my life. boys, friends, school. she's like a friend to me. i can joke around with her. our relationship is priceless. it goes as deep as the sex talk. i know alot of moms probably does it but asians mom..it's pretty rare. hmm. maybe i should blog aboout what my mom saids. well. it's pretty simple. don't do it. if i do, and get pregnant, tell her. as simple as that. she saids don't abort. sometimes, i tease about having a boyfriend but she doesn't believe me. although, she adds don't do anything stupid. i'll accept that. anyways.im tired. btw. i love you mommy!

Patty in Harvard

you hoebag! i can't believe you're actually gone. away from the bay and out of california. even though you are in harvard, know that you will always be a part of us panda. did u thought that we weren't gonna go with you to the airport? silly! we have to be there no matter what. no rain, no thunder, no earthquake can stop us. when anh called us to say that she, abby, kevin, and leo weren't gonna come, it devasted all of us! when we actually found out it was a lie, we were happy! i know that today was the toughest day for you, saying goodbye and crying a river along with everyone else. i know it's been a tough few weeks for you, but know that no matter what, nothing will change and that we will always be there for you! i know that you worry about going away far and that we as a group will grow apart, but you dont need to worry. i know that we all will grow old together, and have babies at the same time so that our babies will be friends. haha. btw. don't forget the mansion that you said you're gonna buy for all of us to live in. each family get their own chamber. haha. anyways. i hope you like what you see when you turn on the camera! (upload it because i didn't really got to see it that well) and the notes will put in your laptop! gosh. we are gonna miss you so much. it already feels different without you here. HAVE FUN IN COLLEGE! STUDY HARD BUT PARTY EVEN HARDER! LIKE YOU ALWAYS SAY!

My own Laptop

i think i am hooked. as in H-O-O-K-E-D! someone get me off my laptop ASAP. it's only been a week and my laptop is my new best friend. JK. nothing can replace my friends. that's why when nancy came over here, i ditched this son of a laptop to go shopping with her. my sisters, nancy, and i went to stoneridge mall. sadly, i am still broke, therefore everything at the mall was beyond my reach to have. i tend to use my camera a lot and record people of guard. my brothers and sisters. but my brother eventually found out and forced me to delete them because it could have embarrassed him. after we got back from shopping, nancy wanted to sing karaoke. nancy, for someone who lives and breath chinese, sang the song "nguoi ai va toi em phai chong". she is getting alot better. i am a pretty darn good teacher if i say myself. haha jk. seriously, with a few hundred more attempts, she's gonna be pro at this song and out beat me with my own language.

back to the topic of my laptop and the camera, i recorded nancy without her knowing. since nancy does not have a blog, she might not be able to see it. which is good. i won't get my butt kicked by her. here it is :





this blog is short. but the video should make it up! haha. good night!

Hard to Say Goodbye

there is one thing that i hate most about college. not the fact that is it crazy expensive, but the fact that it forces people to move away and be separated. i only have very little time to spend time with patty and anna before they leave to boston for harvard. freaking smart ass girls! today was patty's goodbye dinner at CPK. i really enjoyed the food there and the time i spent with my friends! we were at emerville until like 10 pm, listening to singers sing. after they finished singing, we took alot of pictures with kevin's expensive camera. if i have them i might post it up. after wards, we went to abby's house and played charades. i was already getting tired until abby gave me some starbucks coffee and i became wide awake. thats probably the reason why i am awake, 1:52 am, typing this blog. my head hurts a little so whatever i might say later, might or might not make any sense. btw. Jonathan is cool <--- he asked me to do that. LAME!!!

back to the topic of saying goodbye. i believes its not goodbye until someone dies. Extreme but whatever. i know that people are going thier separate directions, but that does not mean we are separating from EACH OTHER. hear that? we will always be the one and only PANDA! it's hard to say goodbye. thats why we dont. when winter break comes along, they will come back and we will be chilling like a villian like old times. things will not change yah hear me?? saturday and sunday. we still got time with each other.

i am really hungry right now. but i do not want to stop. i feel the need to write more and more. i think this is the only time when i actually do something productive online. usually, when i am online i watch youtube videos or go on myspace and facebook. myspace, a site i go on like almost everyday, is dying on me. there are alot of people that i know that still uses it therefore i will continue using it because i dont want to grow away from them. i think i have ADD ( attention deficit disorder) because i am changing topics constantly. like what i am doing right now. once again, i will go back to my initial topic, goodbyes. even though it is not goodbye, i will miss you patty and! like Anh saids, even though the people who lives close to the bay and hang out, in the back of our minds we say "if only patty was here". we care and love you so much! like PANDA SISTERS!

btw. Jonathan is pretty cool! haha I'll miss him when i go to college too!


and anna! i did not forget about you. i will write it when the time gets closer and closer and when my emotions will begin to build up!

8 Is Enough!

"We love this country too much to let the next four years look like the last 8 years. 8 is enough" - Obama

I can't believe i sat through an hour of the democratic convention. when i sat down to watch it. i couldn't stop staring at the tv. it was an inspiring speech. i usually dislike politics because, well because of the government class and the history class that i took in high school. long and boring lectures just mess up my opinions of the government. when i watch these conventions about the presidential elections, it is SO much more interesting. i rather talk about this than about what happened and how the government works. blah. anyways. as i was watching, i start to like him more and more. McCain is next week and i am interested in what he will have to say even though i don't support him. can't wait!

changing topics, my DAD. when i was watching, my dad makes stupid remarks. he was a big hilary cliton fan. not that be even knows much about her beliefs and policies. sometimes i just wish my dad isn't racist. i admit, alot of asian parents are racist, but come on, the world isn't going to get better with all these bad attitudes. "what good is the heart if it dont' have love in it? what good are your eyes if you ain't got vision, what good is the world if we can't all fit in. see all along we ain't that different. love and pain, we share the same feelings" - ALONE by claude kelly. this quote is always stuck in me. i really like it. but backt to my dad. he's that typical asian racist. i know that everyone has a little bit of racism in them, but my dad is just crazy. he doens't like obama because he's black. dude. get over it. he'll probably become our president. hopefully. but yeah. i love my dad. i couldn't have ask for a more perfect one. even though he does have alot of flaws. he still has a good heart. and i am very grateful to be his daughter.

today was san francisco with the girls. dude. i've been so broke these past couple of days/weeks. we ate at the cheesecake factory for Diana's birthday! HAPPY BIRHTDAY BEAUTIFUL! it was really good. i finally finished my food faster than abby and anh! woah! but anyways. tommorow is patricia's goodbye dinner at CPK. i can't believe i only have one more day with that hoebag! JK Patty! loves yah! you're a true panda! and will always be a part of me! I'll miss your horrible pole dancing and your slowness to every joke. i hope harvard sucks so you'll come back to the bay area! JK i really do hope you have a fun time at harvard and meet alot of cool and nice people that won't make you do crazy things. even though you probably would be the one to make them do crazy things! you're a HORRIBLE influences! JK you know i love you! you inspire me to work hard, but party harder! haha no. but really you're really good at balancing your fun time and work time. I'll miss you! don't forget about me!

A New Bet

Anh. remember that bet we made at champa garden for 10 cents? yeah. i forgot what it was about. seems like these days, i have been making a lot of bets and i've won some and lost some. some bets are unmentionable others are just dumb. so far, i bet anh that i will stay single longer than her, and who ever loses, lose 10$. or was it 50$? i forgot because we will change it recently. we were both close to losing this bet but that's over now. we got a whole 4 yeah worth of college time. i dont know what it is but we seem to be able to control this aspect of our life really well. even though i dont know if it's a good thing since we dont usually follow our feelings when we do like someone. we are strong. but are we? im not too sure. but w.e boys are trouble and heartache anyways. haha. anyways, on to the bets. the sober bet. 5$. first one to get drunk loses. this i can definately win. ahaha. alcohol tastes nasty. 2 bets on patty. i won one. and anh won one. lols. but it was only 10 cent bets. other bets. lets see i won a bet against danny about who's older, 200 fly! boyee! hahaha. and also the aim bet, who ever laughs or lol or hahah loses. he lost. i get boba! and first to drink at college buys steak. i'll win. definately.

i want to switch topic and talk about my brother. although he can be extremely annoying, mean, and cruel, he's really cool sometimes. as some knows, my brother is overprotective. he doesn't let me take the bus sometimes. he opens the internet to show me where all the rapest and predators live at around our neighboorhood. and it's alot. 0.0. he doesnt let me go outside without covering my whole body! but yeah i guess he's being careful? iono. but anywyas. i made a bet with him today. it's a pretty big one. i bet that he will not be a millionaire in ten years. if i lose i become a servant for a year. if i win and he doesn't become a millionaire, he becomes my servant for life. this bet is crazy. he's making me sign a contract. will he actually sue his own sister for breaking it?? yes. he said. dude's crazy. well if he do win, i get to live in a millionaire's house. its a win win situation for me.

anyways. i want to talk more about him and his theory. he believes that guys and girls can't be friends. is it true?? no. i totally disagree with him. i dont know what guy thinks but i believe guys and girls can be friends without having more than friendship feelings. i guess that there are some truth in this words, maybe some guys are like that. but then again, you can't smack all the guys together and say that they are all think the same, like saying they all have sperms. but anyways, friends are friends to me. and i dont believe him even though there are cases that are like that. afterall, he is a guy and he thinks that way. btw my brother is like 23. i'll end this for now.

Late at night

i can't sleep for some reason, so i thought i might as well write something. today was a very productive day of doing nothing but eat, sleep, and internet. in addition, i got to clean my room. as i am typing this, i am also listening to my all time favorite song, ALONE by CLAUDE KELLY. this song, unlike most other songs, isn't about love. it's about the world and how everyone is for themselves and alone. there is no love or respect in this world. speaking of love, i am very content with my love life right now. even though i joke about wanting a boyfriend, i honestly don't right now. i am more focus on other things that are affecting me now. like how my panda girls are moving and are separated because of stupid college. don't get me wrong, college is pretty cool, but its making everything harder. why couldn't college be like another grade level and not have people split up. i see my panda girls putting up blogs and updates about how we will always be together and that we will spend more and more time, it makes me really happy that they all care about each other. i never thought that going to college was going to be this hard. i am excited, i really am. but even with this excitement comes tears and painful goodbyes. to me, it is just a vacation from each other because we will still be able to meet up and be together.

anyways, on a better note, i want to talk about college. i am going to a school with millions of bikes. i am scared that i will get a bike ticket. LAME. but this college city has such things. WEIRD. since i will still be 17, i need to be extra careful because they get fined more money. i really do hope that i have an amazing experience at college. every time i see 11:11 0'clock, i wish for that all the times and plus a whole other bunch of things that i wish. i dont want to jinx anything, but i think that i will have a really good time at davis because i have my two girls with me. we will argue and possibly get annoyed of each other, but that will only make our relationship stronger. i promise i will try to be as neat and organized as i can girls! haha.

p.s i still need to go college shopping. i have to buy sheets and blankets. OMG i can't wait for move in day now! it's going to be so much excitement! finding out who lives where. and just meeting new people. and i hope the RA is a boy. hahah. just kidding! no guy thoughts. haha. no seriously. anyways, i will be heading to bed now, my eyes are dying on me. GOODNIGHT guys and girls.

First Day Of School

today is the first day of school. HIGHSCHOOL AT LEAST. who am i kidding? i'm a college student now and school doesn't start until september 26. that's like a whole nothing month. that means summer is just getting started. but then again, everyone has school, and it's not the same. people will be busy and all my davis people is all i got left. having another month sounds pretty cool, i can chill and relax, but at the same time, i have to suffer by seeing people leave for college, and that's pretty bad. i really do hope that college life will be a fun experience, i'm excited and at the same time scared and nervous. the best thing about college is that i got two panda girls with me, ANH and ABBY, in addition to the other friends i already have and have made. I honestly wish summer would pass by real quick when everyone did already left for college. that way, i wouldn't be bored out of my mind.

so anyways. today is the first day of school. oakland tech high school. i mentioned before. I will be going back to the high school that i love oh so much. Although there wasn't much excitement or participation going on in that school, i met the people that i really will cherish for the rest of my life. even though we are seperating, we will never let a little distant come in between our friendship. Like i always said, we stick together like sticky rice. When everyone comes back for winter break, we will have those "sex and the city" girls sit down and talk about our lives and what's to come. in addition to meeting the best people there, i have also met the best teachers there! i know a lot of people will disagree with my choice of best teachers, but honestly, they are to me. mr. merrill and mr. harris! my engineering teacher and my geometry/ap calculus ab and bc teacher. it's because of them that i don't have a straight 4.0 ( and some other reasons) but you know what? it's okay because they are really cool. merrill, his class is always interesting, all the years that i've had in his class, i've managed to learn new things and create cool projects. my first project, i only had a second. the second project, descriptive geometry, i had nadda at state. and for my senior year architect, i was surprised! i got a first and an outstanding award. wow. but anyways.

i mentioned above that high school didn't have that much excitement but i realized that i did. swim team, end of the year pool party, aypal, end of the year project rush, mock trial. SO these things are dorky nerdy things, but it was still extremely fun and i wouldn't trade it in for anything. I'll end my blog here. I have school to go to soon, in like a few minutes!

Second Time

I honestly have no idea what to write or where to start with this thing. Anh told me to get one so she can read the stuff I have to say but I already tell her everything that happens in my life. But yeah, i just made one just in case I need to say something that I can't tell her face to face even though I doubt it will ever happen. *KNOCKS on Wood*

I guess I'll just follow Anh's advice to just write about my day. So it's pretty early in the morning. Well actually it's only 12 something, but whatever. I'm going to go to Stoneridge later today with Huy I think. That dude is obsess with shopping. SERIOUSLY. He shops way more than me.

Anyways, I should be getting ready and get something eat because I'm super hungry. I wanted to type more about something else I'll let that be to next time. You GOTTA wait anh, although I'm sure you know already. haha.

My First Time

Hi! just testing.