The Irony of Love

I got this off the internet... but its so true.

The Irony of Love....

The greatest irony of love: Loving the right person at the wrong time or having the wrong person when the time is right; finding out you love someone after that person walks out of your life. Sometimes, you think you're already over a person, but when you see them smile at you; you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person. But in my opinion, some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else. Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love, but because love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much, and the other was being loved too little. Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love, but to only discover that for them we are just for past times. While the one who truly loves us remains either your friend or a stranger.

When you think of your past love; you may view it as a failure; but when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What's important is that you know when to hold on and when to let go! You know that you love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not apart of it. Everything happens for a reason and for its best. If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try.

You'll never truly love a person, unless you risk for their love; love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, then you won't learn how to love. Love doesn't hurt all the time; though the hurting is there to test you, to help you grow. Don't find love, let love find you; that's why it's called falling in love, because you don't need to force yourself to love, you just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing the chapters. If you want to move on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. But why is it that the greatest irony of love is letting go when you want to hold on, and holding on when you need to let go? When falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get back on the horse. But don't ever make the same mistake of riding the same horse that once threw us off.

To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying and to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing at all! To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose your true self. To love is to risk not being loved in return.

How to define love: Fall but do not stumble. Be constant but not too persistent. Share and never be unfair. Understand and try not to demand. Hurt but never keep the pain.

Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom; whom they choose to be and where they choose to go. Loving someone means giving them the freedom to find their way, whether it leads towards you or away from you.

Love can be a painful risk. To love means that risk must be taken, no matter how scary or painful, for only then will you experience the fullness of humanity of what we call love. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take the risk and if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love.

AAD Production.

stands for Abby Anh Diem Production. haha. yes. today my girls and i made a short movie. it's rather stupid and lame. but we had tons of fun making this. it all started out with us going to Best Buy with Jason for some TV. we got bored so decided to record us doing a Food Network TV Show. it was random and silly. but we ended up makign another small skit when we got back to my house.
Crazy Women in Kitchen



anyways. today was a very fun day. even when we are together in a bored place, we can always find something to do and have a great time do it. gosh. i love my friends. they do everything. even stupid, lame and silly things. that's why i can always count on them to make me smile! <3

I'm READY dude.

it's a friday and i'm sitting here writing this stupid blog because i have no life. haha jk. but seriously though, i'm not doign anything today. i feel lazy. i want to go out. but i kinda dont want to. so indecisive. yes i am. yesterday i went to the hiphop/poetry/theater AYPAL performance. it was pretty good. i loved the play. it reminds me of the good o' days. it feels like just yesterday when i was on the same stage performing that skit. i miss it so much. what i miss most was the people that i shared them good times with.

i can't believe i will be leaving in less than 7 days. it's scary! but i am SOOO READDY. i honestly can't wait to leave and embark on a new journey with my girls. it will be an adventure of our life. College. the title already scares me.. but it also excites me! staying home makes me want to leave and go to college. but when i'm with my friends and the people i like and care about, i makes me not want to leave. i told my friend i wanted to be younger so i didn't have to leave. that i wanted to say young longer and not have to worry about the future and life. being young is awesome because the older you are, the more responsibility you have. and that harder life is. i wish i can bring all my friends with me to college, but all i can bring are pictures and memories. thnk god im not going to college too far from home because i would be sadder than i would be. at least i can come back and visit on weekends.

My Roomates

today was a total bore because i had nothing to do. i stayed home and stayed on this laptop. i was messing around with adobe photo-shop. it was pretty interesting because i haven't used it in a while and i seem to forget how to soon some tools. here's some work that i've done today: it's just fadings... nothing special.



anyways. i was looking through the pictures from my old computer and sending them into my laptop. and i come upon a picture of me and my roomates, anh and abby! this was taken in 8th grade. our dinner dance. that's 4 YEARS AGO! i can't believe it! time pass by so fast! i'm so glad i will be spending 4 more years with these two lovely girls whom i can do stupid things around and laugh no matter what. I thought davis would be boring and dull but that thought that im sharing my college experience with abby and anh, made me want to like learn about it more. and as i started to pay attention to what davis offers, i love it more. i like how it is a town and not a big city. it's not too far or too close to home. and davis has awesome people. oh and the fact that i got tercero! laben....( oops i mean kearney. thanks girls)! with my girls! made it the more special. here's a picture of the dinner dance:

yup that's ANH ABBY and ME! that's us! we look the same??? i dont know. sorta. maybe. but that was us just 4 years ago. and another 4 more years we will have and probably until the end of time! WE WILL RULE DAVIS! haha jk. plus NANCY AND PATTY! I CAN NEVER FORGET THEM. even though they dont go to the same school as us anymore, i love them dearly!!!! LOVE U PANDA!

After 6 days

it's late and......
i finally decided to write a blog after a few days. i've been really lazy and busy with who knows what. writing was a daily thing for me. i used to wish that it was another day already so that i can write about something else. during the past 4 days, i've been staying home and going out. friday i went to go eat korean food with nancy, anh, abby, kao, and kao's friend. it was pretty good except i think we annoyed the waiters. haha. our bad for taking too long. but anyways on saturday i went to an oases social bbq at washington part with aypal. i miss those people so much and it was very nice seeing them again! aypal has made my senior year the best year in highschool. i got to meet so many great people that i can never forget. i just hope that i leave a good enough footprint. some are still young and have alot ahead of them, i dont want highschool to be a place to corrupt and lead them in the wrong direction. enough with the sad talk. aypal made me break out of my shell more and helped me with my public speaking and confidense to approach others. i used to be really nervous when speaking in front of a crowd. now i'm like "bring it on" even tho inside i am nervous and wanting to pee in my pants. i really am going to miss those days at YLO Meetings and yelling ONE MIC all the time to get the listener's attention. i hope for the new interns another great year! anyways. today. i went swimming at alex's pool. it was relaxing. i haven't swam for a while and i miss a mass of water so much. i tried to swim. i think i lost it. seriously. i get tired really quickly. and dont even ask about the butterfly. i was horrible. i was literally gasping for air. my head hurt today because of the amount water that went inside. it was painful. i really miss those old swimming days where perry (our coach) calls me a fish. =) too bad he left before senior year started.
the girls of oaktech swim team. PANDA plus ANNA.

i can't wait until tommorow. or should i say today when morning comes. my mom and i are going dorm shopping and washing the bed sheets. this will be the first time in a long time that i spend time with my mommy. i love her dearly. she's been busy with work and i'm jsut really excited to spend the day with her today. i would put a picture up but i am using my laptop and sadly i haven't added pictures with her in this thing yet. but rest assure you. she is really pretty! ahah

Soulmate

i know the title is Soulmate, but i wanna talk about my day for a little bit just so i can remember what i did today. i am ecstatic! i went to see anna today before she leaves for harvard. we got to eat her famous dumplings! i'll miss it so much she she's gone. i'll miss you mucho anna! youre smartness and your big mouth always talking.. non stop. it keeps things interesting! harvard will do u good! you'll meet alot of new people! btw. i love the picture that you gave me! it'll remind me of you everytime i look at it.. obcviously because it'a picture of you.. don't party too hard! or drink too much! do what you do best! study study study! just kidding. go and party. but dont overdue it! i should make a bet on you.. haha jk. if i would my bet is that you'll be too good of a girl to do those things!! like patty said, you wouldn't even let her grind on you! loser face! haha jk. i'll miss you anna. and youre not so innocent self. i know that deep down you're hella naughty. hahah! <3> switching topic.. ive been listening to natasha alot today. here's one of her song lyric, soulmate:

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find
Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

this song is so sad because it seems so desperate...lol. i find myself really happy of my current status. even though i have never had that love experience, i find it easier, or easy in life. i dont need to think about the hurt that comes.. although i know that there would be alot of great times if you like someone. i guess i've seen alot of people hurt, and it hurts to see people being hurt because of it. when my mom was crying about these things, which btw is over now and i hope it never happens aagain, she mentioned to me how painful it is to be in a relationship and something bad happens.

i remember reading abby's blog about me and anh being truly independent woman, it makes me feel happy. i'll admit, the song lyrics " who doesn't long for someone to hold, who knows how to love you without being told" is true sometimes because when i see people being happy, i envy it. but then i get over it quickluy. haha. who doesn't wanna cuddles? haha. jk. but yes. i think the bet that i made with anh will help keep my head on my school work and away from the love life. im too young. hahahahahaha ok. gotta go my fingers are tired.

Summer Endings

the end of summer is getting closer and closer. and people are leaving and leaving. anna's leaving soon and that's another person leaving for harvard. i dont want to sound so emo talking about sad things so im going to switch subject.

although summer's coming to an end, i cant help but feel excited for the adventures at college. anh and i were discussing how we wanted to move in and still have summer and no classes. yeah. in our dreams. today was a nice day. i went to eat sushi with anh and we had to take the bus, since none of us have our lincense yet. went to meet up with alan and nancy in ct for some watermelon drinks. then went to my house for oysters. oh yeah! seafood! that's my day. also, i waxed nancy and my mom today! haha

speaking of my mom, i want to write a blog about her. i know that i dont appreciate my mom enough but i truely appreciate everything that she does for me. sometimes she can piss me off, but hey! every mom probably does. most people say that my mom and dad is pretty cool, i think they are too. i know i call my dad a racist a couple of times, but i was exaggerating. lol. back to my mom. she and i are really close. i tell her alot of things in my life. boys, friends, school. she's like a friend to me. i can joke around with her. our relationship is priceless. it goes as deep as the sex talk. i know alot of moms probably does it but asians mom..it's pretty rare. hmm. maybe i should blog aboout what my mom saids. well. it's pretty simple. don't do it. if i do, and get pregnant, tell her. as simple as that. she saids don't abort. sometimes, i tease about having a boyfriend but she doesn't believe me. although, she adds don't do anything stupid. i'll accept that. anyways.im tired. btw. i love you mommy!